Make the money

Lately i’ve come to realize that perhaps the most difficult part about life is not just that curve balls get thrown at you, but that you cannot control the time or circumstances under which they are thrown. You don’t get the luxury of seeing when that curve ball hits, you just get to deal with the brutal aftermath and decide how you’ll get back up and heal.

As most know, less than a month ago I lost my brother. Needless to say, that was the biggest curve ball life has thrown at me. I will deal with that loss everyday and it’s unfathomably difficult. Just as I was beginning to understand how I felt about that situation, life threw me another curve ball. One week ago I was let go of from my job due to restructuring, cutting of finances, etc. etc. etc.

Now let me stop for a second and say something that will probably sound like a contradiction at this point: I do not want your pity. I am not writing this to answer the question, “why me?!” There are no answers for that question. This is the hand I was dealt and i’m playing it the best I can. I open up about my struggles for the following reasons:

1. Writing is cathartic for me and helps me understand my own thoughts a little better

2. In the words of my celebrity crush, Macklemore: “See life’s a beautiful struggle, I record it, hope it helps you maneuvering through yours.”

Losing my job was a tough pill to swallow, I simply didn’t see it coming. I interned there in college and was fortunate enough to be employed full-time before I even walked the stage at graduation. It was the perfect launching pad for my career. I was given the tools to grow my skill set, network my ass off, meet incredibly intelligent and compassionate people, and most importantly, learn what I like and dislike about the working world around me.

So instead of sulking in my sorrows, I viewed the loss of my job as an incredible opportunity. While it’s a known fact that I adore Buffalo beyond measure, I also crave adventure and change. It’s just the way I’m programmed. I would be thrilled to stay, but i’m also ecstatic to know that the possibility of a new city is more within my reach than ever before. Yes, the reality of it all is a bit daunting. But the unknown is what makes the exhaustion of it all so ridiculously worthwhile.

These curve balls are never going to end. Some will make me drop to my knees and cry, I’m sure others will make me grin like an idiot and appreciate life in a whole new way. Regardless, they will each teach me a lesson. Learning that lesson and sharing it with others has always been what keeps me going. That will never change.

*Shameless plug: in the meantime, if anyone knows of job openings that fall in line with community management/marketing/public relations, you can view my LinkedIn profile here 🙂

“See life’s a beautiful struggle, I record it
Hope it helps you maneuvering through yours and
That’s why we stay in the lab at night
I’ve been staring into this pad for over half my life
A true artist won’t be satisfied
So I guess that’s the sacrifice
And I say
Make the money, don’t let the money make you
Change the game, don’t let the game change you
I’ll forever remain faithful
All my people stay true”


11 thoughts on “Make the money

  1. One word of advice–take this time and enjoy it! I know having a job is important–but do something you wouldn’t usually have the time for-a class, travel–something you’ve always wanted to do–trust me!!! Taking some time to relax and reflect makes you that much better when you jump back in. ❤


    1. You’re very right about that! I actually have a trip booked to Los Angeles at the end of the month that i’m really looking forward to because I’ve never been to the west coast 🙂 trying to balance it all out as much as humanly possible.


  2. You always continue to inspire me. I think we’re very alike and go after what we want no matter what obstacles get thrown our way. I know you’re good at what you do and I have no doubt that you’ll get to where you want to be in no time. (and if you don’t let’s just start our own company!)


    1. I’m telling you, one day, you, me, nick, Sam Scarcello and a few select others are going to run the marketing of Canisius College. It just seems obvious at this point haha


      1. We will stage a coup one day and take over that marketing department haha. I will say, though it’s still in an infancy stage, starting your own company is rather rewarding, too. Your perspective is always a refreshing reminder on the important things. I don’t doubt for a second that you’ll land on your feet (a cheer pun would be “stick the landing”(sorry)), but I’ll keep my eyes open, regardless. Have a good day.


      2. Hahaha I loved that cheer pun! So good haha I can tell you love what you’re doing with Public Espresso and Coffee. The work we’re all doing is just preparing us for the Canisius Takeover 😉 thanks for keeping your eyes open for me! It helps a lot.


  3. Nicely written ma lady! The work world can be so cut-throat/bottom line driven – it’s poop. Extremely sorry to hear about all that is going on. Best of wishes to you, I know you will land on your feet. In the meantime, I will keep a look out for any positions I notice!



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