Pause

I haven’t written a blog post in more than two months. For a girl who has consistently blogged for over three years, this has certainly been my longest absence.

I could pinpoint a number of reasons why I took a short hiatus: a constant roller coaster of thoughts and emotions with the recent passing of both my brother and my cousin; a new job that finally feels like a career; a strong interest in the practice of yoga; a coaching season that consumes the vast majority of my “extra” time… the list goes on.

But in its essence, my absence from blogging came from one simple fact: I needed a break.

Blogging has never, ever been a chore to me. In fact, i’ve been writing pages upon pages every single night, they’ve just been with pen and paper rather than on my computer. I also have a blank scrapbook I carry around with me where I write blog ideas down when they randomly pop into my head. It’s nearly full.

The ideas are there. But the thought of executing them has just been exhausting. Honestly, I just needed to push it aside for a bit. And once I did, it was a little scary coming back to it. Yet I knew that if I took a break from something that I loved for too long, my hiatus would become permanent. I had to ignore the fact that this year has been (for the most part) a total nightmare, and remind myself of the good that still remains.

This world is astonishingly ruthless and never hesitates to pull us in a million confusing directions without thinking twice. It is unmerciful and often times unforgiving. But despite its brutality, it is a teacher like no other, and one that offers the most worthwhile lessons if you’re willing to look for them.

So when the weight of the world becomes just a bit too unbearable, don’t forget that you’re allowed to press pause. The world will be here waiting for you when you decide to come back.

None of your business

Coaching a group of high school girls entails so much more than, “here learn this skill and execute it as well as you can.”

Yes, the skills are a top priority. However, it has never been just about the sport, at least not to me. It’s about each individual girl and who they have the capability of becoming, both inside and outside of the gym. I always had coaches who cared about me as a person, not just an athlete, and that’s what I try to pay forward to the girls I coach now.

So when one of my girls came to me crying today and said, “everyone hates me, they were talking about me in the locker room, I don’t know what to do!” I told her what i’ve been telling myself pretty frequently the past few weeks: what other people think of you is none of your business. 

Words can hurt, and we’re all justified in showing emotion because of the actions of others. But at the end of the day, the only aspect of your life that you have total and complete control over is yourself. That’s it. You can’t control what other people say, how they feel about you, what they discuss in front of others…. none of it.

All you can do is approach each person you meet with respect, and hope that the consideration you demonstrate is reciprocated back to you. Be kind, the world needs more of it.

 

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My lovely little group of crazies