Road blocks

My Dad and I after my first 5K back in July of 2010.
My Dad and I after my first 5K back in July of 2010.

My Dad and I are similar in the sense that if a good idea (or a slightly crazy one) is presented to us, our initial response is usually, “sure, why the hell not?”. That’s how the 5K back in July of 2010 happened. But we did it, and more importantly, we did it together, side by side the entire way. The feeling of crossing the finish line with my Dad is one of my favorite memories.

Fast forward almost three years later and my body has gone through quite a beating, especially the past year. I was in the middle of my last season of cheerleading and was pushing myself like never before. Simultaneously, I was going through the worst heartache of my then-22 year life which led me to run almost every single day.

I’d kick off my heels after my internship finished, lace up my sneakers and hit the streets. Two hours later I was in the gym running sprints and getting thrown around like a rag doll. But when I got shooting pains in my knee, my doctor told me I hurt my meniscus and I had to stop running. I was devastated.

My favorite place in the world.
My favorite place in the world.

So there I was. Stuck. Cheerleading ended in March and anytime I ran more than one mile my knee killed. I was left without both. I had a choice: sit around and watch my body change in a way I knew I wouldn’t like, or get up and figure something else out.

I joined a gym and became addicted to spinning classes, which gratefully helped strengthen the muscles around my knees. I took yoga classes to keep my flexibility and found that the rowing machine is an excellent way to get my frustrations out. I found a physical therapist who I adore and invested the resources to fix my knee (and hip, ankles and back. Thanks, cheerleading).

I couldn’t settle for not being able to run again. It wasn’t an option for me.

So often in life we hit major road blocks and the frustration is immeasurable. It doesn’t even seem fair. But at the end of the day remember that you always have a choice.

Choose to rely on yourself.

Choose to kick your own ass.

Choose to be happy.

This is my running record from today. I've never ran more than 3.6 miles outside. Hard work pays off.
Until today, I had never ran more than 3.6 miles outside. Hard work pays off.
Happy runner :)
Happy (and sweaty) runner

Be patient with yourself and know that if you want something bad enough, you really can have it. Often times, the only person standing in the way is yourself. I turned my road block into motivation. I used it to fuel me and push me to become a better version of myself.

It’s time to get out of your own way.

Thank you will never be enough

Today I had my very last cheerleading banquet. It was the epitome of bittersweet. My parents were able to come, I helped surprise my best friend and have her Dad, who lives 6 hours away, show up without her knowing it, and I was able to enjoy time with a group of girls that have become my best friends and easily my strongest source of memories from my college career.

My team, including my coach, have been with me through it all. They have laughed with me (and at me… on numerous occasions, including today…), celebrated with me during personal victories, carried me through my struggles, defended me against all odds, and never once, despite all unthinkable circumstances, left me to fight through this crazy life by myself. There is nothing that brings me more satisfaction than to know that I can think back on my college experience and know that it was filled with people who gave me such wonderful intangible gifts.

So this one is to you – my teammates, my best friends, my sisters, my family. No amount of words published on my little blog could ever express what you have given me, especially this year. One of my favorite quotes is, “how lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard” – and that is more relevant now than ever before. For what it’s worth, my time with each one of you is something that I will never forget. My heart is full of appreciation and gratitude for the love that I have for each of you and the memories that we have made together. Although ‘thank you’ will never come close to being enough… I’ll say it anyway. Thank you. For the memories, the laughs, the tears, the commitment, the long talks, and for the friendships that are so rare to come by these days, yet so beautiful and genuine. I will cherish them forever. Thank you.