Reach for what you can depend on

Very recently, I found myself dealing with a situation that I never thought I would be in. It was one of those situations that makes you numb, flusters every thought that enters your mind, makes your hands shake, and your heart ache. And no, I’m not talking about the controversy over my last blog post. I’m talking about life outside of the Internet (shocker). Out of respect for the other people involved, I won’t be completely transparent.

This situation cracked my confidence a bit. And it is a situation that will only get better with time, honesty, willingness, and love. But if anyone out there reading this knows me, they know that I am an optimist before anything else. And that has kicked my ass a time or two, but I have never regretted my desire to see the silver lining. And even with this terrible situation that I find myself trapped in the middle of, I found that silver lining. I found out that in order to persevere through times that kick you to the ground and rub the dirt right in your face, you have to reach for the things that you can depend on without an ounce of hesitation. You have to reach for the things that have never once let you down. So I reached for cheerleading. I nearly jumped for it, hoping it would catch me as I felt the rest of my life falling down all around me. Continue reading “Reach for what you can depend on”

To make amends

Call me naive, call me oblivious, call me whatever you please, but I never thought that my little blog post about cheerleading – a sport (or activity, if you prefer), that few people care about – would ever go as viral as it did. I started this blog last semester, and from September – December I received a little over 400 hits, or views, total. Since I published my post last night around 7 o’clock or so, my blog has received 1,098 hits (as of 2:21pm on Jan 30th, 2012). For my number of views to nearly triple in a matter of hours astounded me. Yet with a topic so controversial, and with wording and speculation as amateur as mine was, I guess I shouldn’t be as surprised as I am. People always say that hindsight is 20/20, and mine is clearer than ever.

Let me start off by saying that if you have not read the string of comments that went along with my post, please do so. They were the inspiration for this rebuttal and I appreciate the individuals who took the time to share their opinions with me. There were a few people who decided to comment by making blatant character attacks upon me, which I cannot say felt too great. Yet maybe that’s just my karma coming around and kicking my ass like it was supposed to. Continue reading “To make amends”