25 and hopeful

Earlier this month my twin sister and I celebrated our 25th birthday. Since I can’t reveal what I wished for when I blew out the candles — it wouldn’t come true if I did that! — I’ll instead reveal what I publicly hope to have happen by this time next year, a wish list to my future self, if you will:


I hope that each and every day spent investing time into my career teaches me something new. If i’m not asking questions of those with more experience and knowledge than me, putting myself in new and somewhat-uncomfortable situations that help me grow, and pushing the boundaries of my potential, I will have failed. It’s easy to become complacent with your work, and I never want to allow myself to reach that point.


I hope to continue to surround myself with people who call me out on my mistakes and blunders, love me unconditionally despite them, and never hesitate to show their true selves in my presence. I don’t know what crossroads of fate and circumstance met which allowed me to have the loveliest of friends, but I thank the stars above for each individual who helps make this life of mine worthwhile.


If you know me outside of this blog, you know that i’m a sap, a romantic, and as genuinely sentimental as they come. On most days, there’s an outpour of gratitude and adoration that I don’t even know how to handle.

To me, having a mutually-invested relationship with someone you love and trust is one of, if not the, most beautiful experiences this life can offer.

Yet i’d be lying if I said I thought I had the emotional capacity to give someone else what they deserve in a romantic relationship this year. Since the passing of my brother, the scale has tipped in an extreme way to focus on my family. The matters of my heart are a little off-balance at the moment, but i’m confident that the areas i’m choosing to invest my energy in are exactly what I need right now.

In the year to come, I’ll work on shifting that balance back to a state of normalcy. This will require keeping an open mind and being more patient with myself than i’ve ever had to be before. I’m sure it will be exhausting, but my sappy self is hopeful that this will bring the right people into my life at the right time. 

My 24th year was home to the most extreme circumstances: it was plagued with irreversible sadness, uplifted by romantic twists of fate, and challenged and changed every single day with tough decisions that left me in both tears of joy and sorrow. I couldn’t have foreseen any of it, and much of it will require acute attention as I push through and embrace the next year ahead.

I’d like to say I’m ready for it, but is anyone ever really ready for life’s twists and turns? 25 will be spent rolling with the punches; bring on the bruises, baby.


Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is going to come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it is right around the corner and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing you’re wishing for. The world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it with all your heart.




What do you wish for your future self? What do you have to do for it to come true?


Give what you can

It is no secret that there are points throughout your life that are more demanding – physically, emotionally, and mentally – than others. It can become especially troublesome when you want to commit so much more time and energy, but your circumstances shackle you to complacency. It’s as though life requires you to sustain certain lulls in order to prep you for the highs and the lows that inevitably and unknowingly sneak their way into your years.

Different situations can change the level of energy and effort you can or even want to contribute, and there isn’t a person on this planet who hasn’t gone through a time where motivation was tough to find; giving our best can mean something different each and every day. I suppose despite life’s stress and chaos, the best we can do in each moment is just that: our best.

Your life will include the right people and experiences if you start each morning with good and honest intent, treat people with kindness, and put a little faith in the process of it all.

I do not desire my life to be a bed of roses. I want it to be something much more than that. I want it to be a truly great adventure, never dull, always exciting and engrossing; not sickly sweet, yet not unhappy. And I believe it will be all I wish…

– Edmund N. Carpenter II, “Before I Die”